to all whom it may concern,
due to the circumstances that had led to such rumors and untruths spreading around. i have decided to write this post and possibly close down this blog and start afresh without dumbarses around.
well, as most involved may noe, a whole flurry of incidents have happened since last week. dramatically involved, i should sae that however and whoever is involved, this COULD be a biased source from my point of view. if there is interest to find out more, please do approach the rest of the invovled. they will tell their side of the story and give a clearer view on this whole situation.
apparently, leading to a meeting of the new executive band committee on friday , i have been informed without cause or reason that my supposed mentees think i am biased and are afriad of such. and thus, do not want to be errr. plaed along.
furious at such an accusation, (like no one wun leh. so cb.) i proceeded to make a phone call to the accuser. without a doubt, it seems true and dumb me, apparently tot it was an isolated case and decided to give in for sake of greater good.
apparently. this is not the case. i should have realised that backstabbing was all this was about. msn messages that rang of "the 3 of us" and the "majority" should have alarmed me that most of them noe about it. and dumb me. tot i could leave it as that. i was wrong.
i din get the full story.
apparently. this bunch of mentees. decided that striking fast and decisively would be the best wae to errr. "Win". while i was still trying to make promises of silence. i realised this person had already hit the usual suspects. going back to the institution on monday, i found out not only did the entire cohort of sec 3s noe about it, i found out that non-organisational participants have also been detailed with a biased story. i realised that one way or another, have gotten the story.
anyone realised smth similar?
well. getting on. a facade has been in place. and it seemed as though nothing has taken place. but. it has. and things have changed. i will not face down to that. i will not.
but contrary to wad others may think. i will not sae anything. i will let the future decide. ur fate. since u saed that "my committee will be able to achieve" "i haf a v. cooperative committee" i leave that to u guys.
but words of advice.
1] the organisation is not yours. never has been. stop using "my" and "i" cos band is a collective. YOU are nothing without it. noe that. live that.
2] false fronts will fall easily. if u cant hold on to wad u have wif a true face, faking will do nth.
3] lol. backstabber talking about others? be careful if pple call u guys kettles man
4] do u really think pple will be convinced with fake stories?
5] no accusation should be made without evidences.
6] music, is wad counts. music, is wad inspires pple to stay on
7] politics will ruin you as much as it will ruin others
8] the more friends and allies u eliminate, will only cause u ruin.
9] when u do things like that, majority may stand. but how mani are trustful?
10] dun act leader. leaders dun act.
and my defense.
i have never ever taught a single specific person much or more than others. i have never shown biasness to anyone before. if u still dunno, regardless friends or not, i will still stand impartial. u of all pple, should noe that.
wad kindof bias are u talking abt.
i tot ur section. i gave u advice. i gave u so mani opportunites. so mani chances. dun sae i din. i can list the mout he if u wan.
and btw. u failed them all. so dun talk about bias here.
i tot ur peers. i gave conducting tips. i may suck at it. but head knowledge can be applied. not like i din teach the brasses. not like i din help with embouchures. not like i din contribute to my section. if i wa bias, i would be stuck at other sections. wouldn't i?
when i scold. i scold all. even if ur fault or ur peer may be more. i shielded u guys so mani times from the consequences. from the failures. so is that bias? yes. for all of u
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and dis.
being thrown out of the organisation
being labelled biased and prejudiced
having to deal wif fucking stories u invented
is wad i get. is wad u guys have err. "aprriciate all ur efforts. as a friend and senior" lol.
fuck ard. and write in ur blogs. all those things abt others. when u cant think wad u have done wrong.
maybe i cant see that too. someone enlighten how i have been BIASED?
personally, i cant think of any event, reason where i haf been biased.
no. i do not have a secret crush or infatuation. she's a gd fren. nth more. nth less. so we are closer than perhaps to u the mentee or the oother one. why. thas normal isn't it? everyone has good friends. i dun see u giggling ard with pple u dun like rite? is that OMG. bias?
and my attack.
i think u and u are biased. attacking pple w/o rhyme or reason. is that rite? somemore we all are friends. close friends if i haf a sae. but apparently. i have been too trusting. jnr-snr. i think too much. been blinded by the light i guess.
fucking backstabbers and accusers i take forfriends.
wad a fool i am.
i think saeing about other pple's area of responsiblity is being irresponsible. WHEN U URSELF have problems wif ur own area of reponsibitly. tell me. didu teach ur jnrs well? if u din. den dun criticse! do u see me criticsing ursections? cos i dun think i have taught them enuff yet. and i am still trying to. lol. and the common perception is that my jnr is one of the better ones in band. thats hard work and dedication isn't it?
u sae that contributions are not representative of opinion.
its not.
precisely.
how can u sae a leader is not a leader. though the results or contribution maybe little?
stop contradicting urselves. this is so. becuse wad u sae is so fake. when u fake. u leave loopholes. when u fake ur opinion, u give out small hints.
start telling de truth for once. stop hiding behind locked doors. and bootlicking. it digusts pple.
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once again.
the ex-drum major
or rather.
the disgraced drum major.
july 2005.
